We all live through our prologues, but we never know when the ride ends and turns into an epilogue. Just as John Green wrote, "You die in the middle of your life, in the middle of a sentence."
There'll never be any new Michael Jackson songs, Jackie Chan will never make a new movie, and the OG online forums no longer exist. You get the point; life is getting bland, and we get our daily high from the random reports of technological progress.
I thought it was finally time to leave behind some of the things I'd known, but it’s been hard. Nigeria is that obsessed girlfriend that follows you everywhere, she’s in your voice, your face, your name, your careless mannerisms. You might leave Nigeria, but she doesn’t leave you.
Try to look back at some point in your life where you were either really sad, worried, fearful, happy, excited, or elated. Now examine your life in the present.
Imagine what it’s like to not look forward to anything, to not expect anything, to not anticipate anything, to feel as if there’s no new problem to solve, to feel as if nothing is coming.
One of the things I quickly realized, contrary to popular belief, was that meditation wasn’t a practice to change your state of mind; It was merely about noticing it and being aware of what arises in consciousness.